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Mummy loves Mayday. And Manfred. Then Daddy...
After a tiring day at work, or when mummy mood is down down, Mayday videos never fail to crack me up, no matter what. :)
I hope when Manfred grows up, you can also find something you love that can make you smile at an instant.
Mummy has been a fan for Mayday since secondary sch, until now. LOVE. to . MAX. And this year, because of you, little thing, I didnt go to their concert. Was afraid that the sound would be too loud for your small ears. But its ok, i heard some from outside the stadium. I could just stay and finish the whole concert, outside, but Daddy was hungry and he sure was bored, so we compromised.
Anyway Manfred, its good, we've been lunching alone quite often, just the 2 of us. And its getting more and more comfortable. :) Good, keep it up.
Alright, let me get back to 五月天！
Monday, 12 March 2012
Sunday, 11 March 2012
Gonna Live As An Individual
As much as family support is taken for granted to be expected, I'm gonna start living life as an individual, meaning I have to be very very independent and not relying on anyone.
I have to accept myself that I am now getting clumsier and moodier. And I'm gonna embrace it and live with it. I have to walk slower, because of the extra "ball" that Manfred is growing in. My actions are slower than last time (needless to say), and even getting out from the bed, is not gonna be easy. Every time when I wake up and open my eyes, my body is aching/sore. Too much on my left side. Every time when I get up from my seat after being seated more than 45 min, I have to use another way to get out from the seat. I can't just get straight out or jump up like last time. I have to eat slow, and drink slow, so that I don't get bloated so easily, which leads me to being breathless at times. Therefore, I learnt to enjoy lunches alone. I take my time to walk. I take my time to eat. I take my time to think and reflect during lunches.
I'm also gettin' moodier sometimes. I tot that I havent been really playing my role, as a daughter and a wife. As I take cabs more often now(thanks to crowded trains and buses), when I go back to my parents' place during weekday, I'm gonna spend more than $20 to their place and then back to Hougang. It's big money in long run. I can't visit them as often. Thou I promise them before I got married, that I would stay over like during weekends, but its been a month since I stayed over. :'( I feel bad, deep within. Coz all they needed, or wanted, was their close kin to stay over. (Not so much my niece and nephew staying over).
As for playing a part as a wife, what have I done? I cant cook @ here, under strict restrictions from the mother-in-law. I cant drive out and buy him good food. I cant even accompany him watch finish a show on tv as I get tired and sleepy very easily. My current bed time way exceeds my bed time at home. Thou I have adjusted, but I feel like shit (tired) in the morning. I cant do much for him overall. And with my big tummy (bigger than others), let's not mention the intimate needs he should have from a wife. Bah!
As much as I wanna do my things myself, there are just some things that I can't, due to risks concerned. And I m guarding Manfred with all I have, as much as myself. I could be selfish/not helpful at times. But I guess mothers / mothers-to-be ought to be.
They said when one gets pregnant, it means 2 get pregnant - with the partner involved. But only when you have been thru, then you know it's quite impossible. Your partner can only show you his support, this much. That is so much he can do. But ultimately, for the rest of the day, you are on your own, with your precious tummy with you. You have to be very careful with what you do, what you eat, what you feel. You know you have to control yourself very well, when at work, your clients piss you off with one shot. Instead of F***ing them back, you've got to cool down and CALM DOWN. Take in deep breaths, breathe out. x10! AND SMILE! :)
Sometimes I feel a little helpless and a lil useless, that is why I m determined to still do whatever I can do on my own. Trying not to rely on anyone else... I'm gonna keep the yoko yoko by my bedside, and so in case my leg cramp comes again, I'm gonna attend to it myself. >:)
I have to accept myself that I am now getting clumsier and moodier. And I'm gonna embrace it and live with it. I have to walk slower, because of the extra "ball" that Manfred is growing in. My actions are slower than last time (needless to say), and even getting out from the bed, is not gonna be easy. Every time when I wake up and open my eyes, my body is aching/sore. Too much on my left side. Every time when I get up from my seat after being seated more than 45 min, I have to use another way to get out from the seat. I can't just get straight out or jump up like last time. I have to eat slow, and drink slow, so that I don't get bloated so easily, which leads me to being breathless at times. Therefore, I learnt to enjoy lunches alone. I take my time to walk. I take my time to eat. I take my time to think and reflect during lunches.
I'm also gettin' moodier sometimes. I tot that I havent been really playing my role, as a daughter and a wife. As I take cabs more often now(thanks to crowded trains and buses), when I go back to my parents' place during weekday, I'm gonna spend more than $20 to their place and then back to Hougang. It's big money in long run. I can't visit them as often. Thou I promise them before I got married, that I would stay over like during weekends, but its been a month since I stayed over. :'( I feel bad, deep within. Coz all they needed, or wanted, was their close kin to stay over. (Not so much my niece and nephew staying over).
As for playing a part as a wife, what have I done? I cant cook @ here, under strict restrictions from the mother-in-law. I cant drive out and buy him good food. I cant even accompany him watch finish a show on tv as I get tired and sleepy very easily. My current bed time way exceeds my bed time at home. Thou I have adjusted, but I feel like shit (tired) in the morning. I cant do much for him overall. And with my big tummy (bigger than others), let's not mention the intimate needs he should have from a wife. Bah!
As much as I wanna do my things myself, there are just some things that I can't, due to risks concerned. And I m guarding Manfred with all I have, as much as myself. I could be selfish/not helpful at times. But I guess mothers / mothers-to-be ought to be.
They said when one gets pregnant, it means 2 get pregnant - with the partner involved. But only when you have been thru, then you know it's quite impossible. Your partner can only show you his support, this much. That is so much he can do. But ultimately, for the rest of the day, you are on your own, with your precious tummy with you. You have to be very careful with what you do, what you eat, what you feel. You know you have to control yourself very well, when at work, your clients piss you off with one shot. Instead of F***ing them back, you've got to cool down and CALM DOWN. Take in deep breaths, breathe out. x10! AND SMILE! :)
Sometimes I feel a little helpless and a lil useless, that is why I m determined to still do whatever I can do on my own. Trying not to rely on anyone else... I'm gonna keep the yoko yoko by my bedside, and so in case my leg cramp comes again, I'm gonna attend to it myself. >:)
A little helpless.
Lil precious, as pregnancy grows, I feel more tired, and useless. I just wanna go back home and just be alone.
It was a sweet journey, until backache and numbness appears everynight. Until, I run out of breath quickly and heart beats faster when I walk a lil fast, or reacts a lil quicker. Until, I have backache when sitting in the office. Until, I feel faint by just standing a mere 20min at most. Until, I feel so useless and clumsy. Until, i spent so much money on cab. Until, my stomach feels like bursting every sec. Until I juz wanna go home and hide, and cry. All this untils..... Until I hold u in my arms. I can go thru this. But I dun wanna let anyone see me in this clumsy state.
I dun wanna worry too much. It's just the physical pain that I'm gg thru. I'm alright. I'll be OK.
Also dun wanna my lil precious to worry too much. so I will smile and laugh it off.
Heart is beating fast again. Hopefully a good night sleep tonight.
It was a sweet journey, until backache and numbness appears everynight. Until, I run out of breath quickly and heart beats faster when I walk a lil fast, or reacts a lil quicker. Until, I have backache when sitting in the office. Until, I feel faint by just standing a mere 20min at most. Until, I feel so useless and clumsy. Until, i spent so much money on cab. Until, my stomach feels like bursting every sec. Until I juz wanna go home and hide, and cry. All this untils..... Until I hold u in my arms. I can go thru this. But I dun wanna let anyone see me in this clumsy state.
I dun wanna worry too much. It's just the physical pain that I'm gg thru. I'm alright. I'll be OK.
Also dun wanna my lil precious to worry too much. so I will smile and laugh it off.
Heart is beating fast again. Hopefully a good night sleep tonight.
Thursday, 8 March 2012
It's exercise time after dinner
And Manfred Tong Ong is moving around.... should I say... shuffling. Hmm..
U never fail to make mummy smile like an idiot when u karate me. U r the only one who can karate me and make me Smile.
Super love to feel u inside me. Every movement from u that I can't miss, is totally miraculous.
How not to love u when u r in my arms? but I will still scold n beat beat if u r notti. For ur good.
Yippie, boss is getting me and cat a MacBook air and he has ordered liao. How cool is that??? How not to love boss u say?? At least it's lighter. Heh heh heh.
U never fail to make mummy smile like an idiot when u karate me. U r the only one who can karate me and make me Smile.
Super love to feel u inside me. Every movement from u that I can't miss, is totally miraculous.
How not to love u when u r in my arms? but I will still scold n beat beat if u r notti. For ur good.
Yippie, boss is getting me and cat a MacBook air and he has ordered liao. How cool is that??? How not to love boss u say?? At least it's lighter. Heh heh heh.
Tuesday, 6 March 2012
Hello, darling.
Sorry, mummy was being such a workaholic past one week. It's days of late nights, late lunche. Sorry darling. I m well aware that I m preggie, but I dun wan to make use of this as mummy's privilege. It's a matter of respect.
I hope u are coping well inside mummy.
U are a strong boy, mummy knows. So many things u and I conquered tgt. You r just extraordinary.
Mummy loves u. :)
I hope u are coping well inside mummy.
U are a strong boy, mummy knows. So many things u and I conquered tgt. You r just extraordinary.
Mummy loves u. :)
Saturday, 3 March 2012
Tgif is over.
I hope u have a little enjoyed yourself with the quiet times, and the mayday videos that mummy can't stop herself.
I juz realized one thing, there is really one thing that men cannot feel for their hippo wives.
The extra little stares that she got from strangers on de streets. Nothing bad from their looks, but just dun like the extra attention paid.
睡觉吧。小家伙。
Baby, u wriggle again! Lol!
I juz realized one thing, there is really one thing that men cannot feel for their hippo wives.
The extra little stares that she got from strangers on de streets. Nothing bad from their looks, but just dun like the extra attention paid.
睡觉吧。小家伙。
Baby, u wriggle again! Lol!
Friday, 2 March 2012
You are my happy pill!
Yes, Manfred, you.
Whenever I feel low, ur little punches nv failed to bring smiles on my face.
It's that comforting.
I love u my precious. Like noone else will. Not even your dad. He won't be able to go through what we are going through now.
Not a easy journey. Especially those tired nights when we can't sleep. And waking up with sore arms, thighs and backs every morning. It's not about the pillow support. It's about the weight that I have gained tremendously.
Let's spend Fridays alone. Just u and I.
Whenever I feel low, ur little punches nv failed to bring smiles on my face.
It's that comforting.
I love u my precious. Like noone else will. Not even your dad. He won't be able to go through what we are going through now.
Not a easy journey. Especially those tired nights when we can't sleep. And waking up with sore arms, thighs and backs every morning. It's not about the pillow support. It's about the weight that I have gained tremendously.
Let's spend Fridays alone. Just u and I.
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