Goodbye 2012, with loves.

And it is another year. Thank you 2012. It had been a great great year. A year that marks another milestone in my life. In 2012, I've become a mother. I've been through pregnancy and delivering my baby boy!

From being secretive about my pregnancy (the 3 months' rule) to admitting to hospital due to contractions (during 27 weeks) and delivering Manfred in July. Woah, what a journey!

Thank God for everything i am having now. A new LOVE and motivation in my life. Totally LOVE. Yes, he may be cranky at times (and drove me up the wall), but his big smiles and laughters blew all the crankiness away. Seeing his progress day by day, is a big big blessing to me everyday! One day he may lift his head up (@ about 1 month plus), and another day, he flipped and rolled, and lay in a turtle position. Amazing! No one taught him, and it just happened. In fact, for every babies, it's such an amazing gift in them.

Today, I witnessed him WALK in the walker. And that made me go woo-wah-ohh! My boy is amazing.

So much happened during the 5 months.

Of course, there's also so much that I've got to sacrifice for Manfred. SLEEP is number 1. MY OWN TIME is number 2. But i keep telling myself, I will cherish what I m sacrificing now, coz in no time, he will be all grown up and he will not want to go out with mummy and daddy anymore. Therefore, I would want to spend more time with him now. :)

Moving on, my work and career.

Until now, I'm still quite certain that I would still want to remain in the creative industry. And more certain that I m not looking forward to join so called The Big Companies, unless maybe they pay gold peanuts. :P

I love my job and am glad that after 22 months at FJORD, i'm still not dragging my feet to work. 2 more months to 2 years there! Time flies. From getting married, to being pregnant, to being a mummy, everything happened within this 1 year plus at FJORD.

I've gained a lot and of course, lost some things in life too.

I've lost my right vocal cord due to bacterial infection complication which happened 3 days before i delivered Manfred. But after a few months, my voice is coming back, though my left vocal is working very hard. No more KTV for me as most of my high-keys are forever gone. But its alright, I appreciate what I have now. At least I can still talk and not yet, affect my work. My voice is my rice-bowl.

I've lost some good friends who really once mattered to me, a lot. But I'm also glad after near to a year, I have moved on fine after some heartbreaks and reflections. Yes, things will not be the same, no more. Moving on is the only solution. I cant just sit there and draw circles. So, good bye with love, as much as I really dun wish this to happen, but I wish them well with all my heart. :)

But then again, there is this handful of people in my life, who never let go of me, accept my flaws as much as my strengths.. for truly who I am. Ridiculous, quick-tempered, crudely humorous (at times), always late, and grumpy when tired. Forgiving, generous, lame, bubbly, and always act-smart. You may be a long-time friend, or a new friend who just entered my life, or a family member, or just someone close to me...  I just wanna say Thank You. Could never thank enough for accepting me for who I am. Coz I just realised it's so hard to have these people in life. A small handful, is very fortunate already.. <3

And for 2013: I Want To...

- Save more.
- Visit my parents more, especially my mum.
- Work harder to shed those spare tyre off my waist
- Take care of my health
- Be more patient and loving to Manfred and his dad (haha)
- Be positive
- Be more focused at work, hopefully could bring Fjord to another stage. Have gotta be more cheong liao.
- Learn more dishes, Cook them.
- Be very involved in OUR NEW HOUSE!! Cannot Nua !!

Lastly, MORE LOVE FOR PEOPLE AROUND ME.

Hello, 2013! Hope you will treat me well and good!! Rock on!

Sick weekend before Xmas

In this post I just wanna record down my sick experience so next time I can aga-aga.

Monday: Joan was sick with sneezes

Wednesday: I was having real bad sore throat, and slight runny nose, chills
Thursday: Sore throat with runny nose and a couple of coughs, chills
Friday: Runny Nose, slight sore throat, chills, coughs
Sat: Runny Nose, Cough, No more sore throat - went to see Doc Tan - Had meddy, concussed from 12plus till 7.30pm! Had porridge for Dinner. Hubby cooked! Slept early.
Sunday: Slightly better, still lim beh... but much better than Saturday.
Monday: Coughs. Went facial at new york. At night go gai gai at MBS lo!
Tuesday: Recovering! :D

So basically from start to end, it takes one week. This time round, I spreaded the flu to Manfred. So guilty. He started to have a runny nose with free flow mucus on Friday, then he had really stuck nose during the night. Went to see Doc at SSBC @ AMK with Dr Goh Siok Ying. Had his nose washed and he was crying for life. Poor boy. And he had flu meddy and phlegm meddy.

That Friday night/Sat morning, was my first time I sucked out his mucus using my mouth. :) Disgusting I know. But that was the first time i saw my darling cried so hard due to discomfort. My heart totally lost and broken.

SO, next time u can call me selfish, BUT I M SO GONNA WEAR MASKS WHEN ANYONE FALL SICK AT WORK OR HOME.

Will you?

Will u still be romantic and nice till we are old?

Will u still kiss me good morning
Will u still kiss me good night

Will u still be there when Manfred grows up

Will u still remember the me u first met

Will u still be mesmerized by our teenage puppy love

Will u still remember the first song u sang me

Will u still remember our cheesy slogan since 2001?

Thou sun and moon may pass away... Will IT still stay?

Keep your eyes away from his

When we were having dinner at Pastamania just now, there was young Indian family sitting behind me.

Through out the dinner Manfred was very jovial and kept giggling every time I turned to look at him. So mad cuteness!

When the Indian family was leaving, the mummy came to us and told us Manfred is a doll, and asked us to keep our eyes off his (he has electrifying eyes)

:) happy. And what a nice lady to actually came over and sent us compliments. :)

Good deed, good day!

On a side note, keke, after much pestering I've gotten a belated anniversary present from Big Darling. Kate Spade Stevie baby bag @ $320. It's a love at first sight when I first saw at suntec. Since we din celebrate our anniversary this year so he just got his to compensate for everything lor.

Manfred down with flu

Poor darling. Heard him sniff sniff while sleeping at night. Refuses milk or only drinks like 3oz and then vomited.

Last night had put 4ml of of fei zai water into his night feed and it really helps! He slept all the way to 4am cried for a diaper change, cried at 6am for morning feed.

Anyway he had shaved botak on 17.11.12 and I really missed his astro boy hairstyle. :(

Hope darling get well soon.

情势未了 － Unfinished Matters

易经。情势未了

陈师傅说我的命很旺。可以旺家人，旺老公和孩子。可是偏偏我有很多东西放不下，看不开。其实我懂得。我懂应该怎样做，可是最后还是放不下的。

《以柔克刚》－ 我做得到吗？

放下一些曾经对我来说很重要的人，我又做得到吗？

If one day, robots could replace human AEs... then what could I be?

If this day comes, I'd be lost.

Well, thou Im always cursing and swearing, but I love my job. I mean if there comes a day that I dont even feel like swearing anymore, it also means I have lost the passion for my job.

Its the nature of the job I enjoy - in the illusionized world of design. No right or wrong, you just have to sell it like a masterpiece. Servicing clients, especially difficult ones has its combo challenges. And because we are not selling products, but designs, which is very subjective, it takes a little more than "that" to SELL. How do you convince your clients that it's WHITE when it's actually BLACK... Or that it's a chicken, when it's actually a duck... Ahhh, that's our job... :) Not saying that we always "Smoke"our clients, but most of the times we have to draw an illusion for them to nod their head and smile silly.. and eventually sign the contract. But first of all, we have to LOVE what we are selling to the clients lar. It's business 道德。

Sometimes the hubby farking hate it when I swear and scold THE "F" word... or some other Hokkien vulgarities when I share with him stories at work. BUT, its difficult not to swear when u meet people who have no common sense, or unreasonable, or vent anger on you when they are not in their best mood, or think they are big fark when they pay peanuts... It's very frustrating! Please, someone introduce me an AE who doesn't swear... I would like to meet The SAINT.

Apart from "those clients' problems", of coz there are a lot of internal problems. When we are over-busy and bring in too much "business", designers have too much on their plates, and they "black face" us lor. But when we don't bring in as much as we could, I WILL GET CALLED INTO THE ROOM and kenna questioned. :( ME! Not the team. Very sians one lar.

But, overall, Im really glad that I still have a very positive team, as in my AEs. Of coz we grumble (ALOT) when we kenna "kiap" sandwiched between boss and designers and clients (WOAH, 3 way sia), but we made it thru most of the times. The best way out is to make jokes outta every problems we face lor, humour is the best medicine and solution. Laugh over it, go back sleep, and tomorrow is a good ol' brand new day! Yes, AE is not for everyone... not for the faint-hearted, hot-headed, bimbo etc.

I don't seldom bring work frustrations back home. Not worth it. Especially now that I have my precious darling waiting for me back home, SMILE! And the world will smile with you. :D

Coming back to the title, hmm... i dont think i will be going back to marketing. This is the career where I will stay. unless... I dunno, maybe some really good offers approach me. :) But, I dont think so.

OR, i will just be a SAHM for Manfred. :) But, but, I always believe WOMAN MUST BE FINANCIALLY INDEPENDENT, no matter how much you earn, 少有少赚，多有多赚。Can never rely on your man for $$$. They will treat you like dust when years go by, and then you become this "yellow face woman". Yes, you can request for expensive luxurious gifts now and then lar... but ultimately you know you can afford it yourself even if he doesnt buy for you. :)

Ah, and the email comes in.. gotta go back to work. BA! (blog again)