And so its the biggest challenge so far, that im facing as Mrs Tong.
I don't even know if i can stick it through with you, after you successfully crashed my world last Sunday with a piece of news totally unexpected.
I asked myself, why should I forgive you? After something you have done, so irresponsible, to me and to the boys. And our days would be darkened these coming 3-4 years, of course of you.
Divorce - easy and hard way out. With your situation now, there's no way you could get the custody of the boys. No way. But for me - financially it's gonna be a struggle, but if i would be find a higher pay job then it shouldnt be a problem.
Ok, let's put it this way, if i had still loved you, I will stay through with you. But no, I don't. Not after how u treated me these 5 years. I feel like we are strangers living under the same roof. And after much initiatives from my side to try to make things better, but you dont reciprocate. I guess it's time I should stop - and both of us just come together as co-parents for Manman and Mitch.
Although you said you still love me - I wouldnt believe you. Think about it - if I would to leave you with the boys, you would have nothing with you. Nothing. Not a piece of asset. (obviously the house would be sold if we were to divorce) Nothing would stop you to say you still love me, so that I would be soft hearted and stay through with you. What I said makes sense right?
And if the mild chance did strike that I would to stay through with you - you do know what's gonna happen right?
1. I will jagar ALL your finance - forever. If you don't know how to - let the wife do it.
2. If in any case I wanna get something luxurious (eg. Bag) within these few years, but i cant because of our situation now; you know I will make noise and blame it ALL on you.
3. I will be judgemental and put the blame all on you AGAIN - when I walk pass some nice sushi restaurant, and all i could do; is only to WALK by and say bye.
4. If in any case I do not feel loved and doted - you know I will make noise again. And again, I will tell you. there's no point of us being together. Because I totally had enough of your cold shoulder and your laziness of not making our marriage work!
5. And the boys had to skip the things like piano lessons and art classes because of you - i will make you feel guilty about it.
6. You had always know that I had always wanted to be a stay home mum and jagar the kids right? By right, this could easily happen. But now - my life is x2 harder. Thanks to you. And yes, if they didnt turn out to be the boys I wanted them to be, you know what.
7. Yes, money can be earned back, like what I said. But this sum of money is a complete nightmare to me, and we could maybe get a condo if you didnt get yourself in this shit. Not that I'm a fan of condo, but still. Ok, maybe a decent 5 room.
8. I believe its also my own karma that this had happened. But still.....
9.Your life is gonna be VERY TOUGH. Its gonna be NO-EGO for you. It's even harder than climbing Mt Everest emotionally. Im a TOTAL BITCH ; im gonna treat you like a dog. You turned my life around 360 to the dark side. This is wad is gonna happen to you too. When I say now, means now. When I say Out, means out. Im gonna try find back the love i used to have for you. But if I couldnt, then sorry, means its been too long since I had really lost the love for you. But I said I'd try, right?
10. So if you are still begging us to stay by your side. Think very very hard. Think twice, think thrice.
On the bright side, if we can make it through this, (fuck! this is like signing up for Commando for 4 years!)... then yes, i believe this is a very good turn around. But still, if i dont feel like im your wife/your lover, I'm gonna walk away. Life is too short to waste on people who dont love/appreciate their spouse. I'm not perfect, but you had made me worse.
So think about it.
