And it is another year. Thank you 2012. It had been a great great year. A year that marks another milestone in my life. In 2012, I've become a mother. I've been through pregnancy and delivering my baby boy!
From being secretive about my pregnancy (the 3 months' rule) to admitting to hospital due to contractions (during 27 weeks) and delivering Manfred in July. Woah, what a journey!
Thank God for everything i am having now. A new LOVE and motivation in my life. Totally LOVE. Yes, he may be cranky at times (and drove me up the wall), but his big smiles and laughters blew all the crankiness away. Seeing his progress day by day, is a big big blessing to me everyday! One day he may lift his head up (@ about 1 month plus), and another day, he flipped and rolled, and lay in a turtle position. Amazing! No one taught him, and it just happened. In fact, for every babies, it's such an amazing gift in them.
Today, I witnessed him WALK in the walker. And that made me go woo-wah-ohh! My boy is amazing.
So much happened during the 5 months.
Of course, there's also so much that I've got to sacrifice for Manfred. SLEEP is number 1. MY OWN TIME is number 2. But i keep telling myself, I will cherish what I m sacrificing now, coz in no time, he will be all grown up and he will not want to go out with mummy and daddy anymore. Therefore, I would want to spend more time with him now. :)
Moving on, my work and career.
Until now, I'm still quite certain that I would still want to remain in the creative industry. And more certain that I m not looking forward to join so called The Big Companies, unless maybe they pay gold peanuts. :P
I love my job and am glad that after 22 months at FJORD, i'm still not dragging my feet to work. 2 more months to 2 years there! Time flies. From getting married, to being pregnant, to being a mummy, everything happened within this 1 year plus at FJORD.
I've gained a lot and of course, lost some things in life too.
I've lost my right vocal cord due to bacterial infection complication which happened 3 days before i delivered Manfred. But after a few months, my voice is coming back, though my left vocal is working very hard. No more KTV for me as most of my high-keys are forever gone. But its alright, I appreciate what I have now. At least I can still talk and not yet, affect my work. My voice is my rice-bowl.
I've lost some good friends who really once mattered to me, a lot. But I'm also glad after near to a year, I have moved on fine after some heartbreaks and reflections. Yes, things will not be the same, no more. Moving on is the only solution. I cant just sit there and draw circles. So, good bye with love, as much as I really dun wish this to happen, but I wish them well with all my heart. :)
But then again, there is this handful of people in my life, who never let go of me, accept my flaws as much as my strengths.. for truly who I am. Ridiculous, quick-tempered, crudely humorous (at times), always late, and grumpy when tired. Forgiving, generous, lame, bubbly, and always act-smart. You may be a long-time friend, or a new friend who just entered my life, or a family member, or just someone close to me... I just wanna say Thank You. Could never thank enough for accepting me for who I am. Coz I just realised it's so hard to have these people in life. A small handful, is very fortunate already.. <3
And for 2013: I Want To...
- Save more.
- Visit my parents more, especially my mum.
- Work harder to shed those spare tyre off my waist
- Take care of my health
- Be more patient and loving to Manfred and his dad (haha)
- Be positive
- Be more focused at work, hopefully could bring Fjord to another stage. Have gotta be more cheong liao.
- Learn more dishes, Cook them.
- Be very involved in OUR NEW HOUSE!! Cannot Nua !!
Lastly, MORE LOVE FOR PEOPLE AROUND ME.
Hello, 2013! Hope you will treat me well and good!! Rock on!
